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I haven’t been writing anything longer than a paragraph lately because I haven’t had enough energy. That can be explained by the best news I’ve ever shared. Rachel Weslee Pitlick. She arrived November 18th. Thanks to a rather smallish head, and what I can only assume is an indomitable will, she came the day before I was scheduled to be induced, after only 6 hrs of labor. She’s healthy, and to my eyes one of the prettiest babies I’ve ever seen. See for yourself. http://www.solidpcs.com/Rachel. She was 20.5 inches and 7 lbs, 6 oz at birth, but at her two week visit to the doctor she was already 21 inches and 8 lbs, 4 oz. Quite a little handful for someone so young. She’s an angel all day, and we’re working on nights. We’re getting there…slowly.

I didn’t know how much I didn’t know. I didn’t know how unconditional my love could be. I spent the majority of the first three days of her life just holding her and looking at her in awe. I automatically wake up minutes before she cries out for food. My body just knows she’ll need me, and even when it hurts to move that’s all that matters. Motherhood is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but when those eyes look up at me, and I feel that petal-soft cheek rub against mine, I know that Rachel is the best part of what Josh and I have together.